it's been awhile since i've updated.
and also..
it's been awhile since we talked or met.
just went to see your fb and your profile picture is still the same.
my favorite picture.
wanted to know how u were these days.
but even if i asked you,
you would say life have been great.
it's like both of us are strangers who have just met.
it really hurts a lot.
yesterday talked to grandpa.
and told him that i've quit smoking.
yes....
i've really quit..
he asked me why the sudden thought..
and i really don't know why too.
and he asked me..
'still can't let go?'
i was like...
i really don't know too.
once in awhile you will suddenly appear in my mind.
and all our memories will start to flash by in my mind as well.
then he said i haven let go of you.
and now that he mentioned..
i realized that i still love you.
it's just that i've suppressed my feelings for you.
and put them to the back of my mind.
as for the heart..
it's numbed.
and the feelings are well kept inside..
in a drawer inside my heart and it's safe and locked nicely.
i miss you.
i really do.