原来我终究还是一个人

Monday, January 21, 2008

lols... nowadays is lyk so... i dunno how 2 phrase it oso.. i feel so

lonely, sad, afraid, confused, pissed off..

i dunno wat has happened 2 mii oso.. sometyg has happpened 2 mii yeaterday nite..

i dunno wat exactly happened... but itfeels so real..

as if.. as if some1 or maybe sometyg was tryin 2 hurt mii or she was tryin 2 tel mii sometyg.

it happened around 1 am ..

i was goin 2 bed den.. but.. sometyg keep flashin through my mind..

de moment i shut my eyes.. she appeared rite b4 mii.. dere was some sort of gren light

within her..she was starin with mii with her pair of emotionless, horrifyin eyes.

wat was she tryin 2 express 2 mii?? have i offended her in anyways?

or.. maybe she need my help ?!

but.. y mii??

i couldnt get 2 slp yesterday..but when i was goin 2 slp,

suddenly i felt nauseaus.. & i actually went behind 2 puke.. i vomited around 2 tyms..

come 2 tyk of it.. y did i vomited? i didnt had supper or heavy dinner..

how was it possible.. i was de only 1 hu puked..

later.. i went 2 tell mii mum abt it.. but only de part where i vomited..

is it real? or is it just my imagination?

i went 2 slp after tat.. den i dreamt of myelf.. havin dunno wat cancer..

deres still alot of tygs happenin in dere.. wat does it signify?

havin a bad headache now..

lols.. wateva it is.. i really hope tat it doesnt bother mii anymore..

or maybe jux get out of my mind..

was now at wei haw de hse. doin our dnt with mao mao & him lol..

had no idea how 2 do or wat 2 do lehx. but.. i could clearly see how my artefacts look lyk..

hmmm.. dun feel lyk goin 2 sch lehx. so sien..

dunno wat is he doin in now.. hmmm.....

opps.. i almost 4got sumtyg.. dunno hu has been stabbin my back nowadays...

i keep seein 4.44pm.. lol.. if i noe hu horhx. sure kana..

haix... really miss him alot lol... wat exactly is he tykin lol..

was tykin abt this lol.. does he really exist??

is he jux an illusion or a invisible character which euu made up & bluff mii..

if so.. its ok.. i dun blame euu.. i m happy.. atleast i believe..

but if its true.. y izzit tat dere r so many loopholes..

i hadnvr seen him or hear him..

haix...

maybe i tyk 2 much le... hmmm..

i will jux stick 2 current lol..

i believe tat he exist in mii life.. arh.....

i miss him........

i died.
10:00 AM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Friday(1/11)

haha... 2day was lyk so tired lahx. heex. lols.. mii & pk went 2 alot of places 2day lol. we met at abt 1+ den met jac at cheers dere. haha. wat a coincident lol.. haha. hmmm.. went 2 abt 5 places 2day lol. 1st,went 2 outram 2 but bags. so cheap lahx. den met jac, sharon, gilson, jun hao & dunno hu in de train lahx. wahx. suay arhx. haha. lol. went 2 suntec 2 buy pk's jacket .. haha. we search de whole place 4 it lahx. haha. went 2 search 4 de exit 2 walk 2 bugis but den cannot find.. den we went 2 eat DONUT.. haha. lol. so hungry can. lol. we sit at e corner dere lol. den we lyk idiots lyk tat lol. haha.. lols. heng lahx. we found de exit. den walk 2 bugis. wahx. we walk until mii leg wan break liao lahx. tat pk horhx, 4get how 2 go arhx. hai mii so tired lahx. den go meet pk de bro & his fren. lol. haha. we go walk walk at bugis 2gether. ahaha.. we throw all our stuff 2 her bro lahx. bought alot of tygs lol.. den saw peiling workin.. haha. we go ka jiao her. heex. lols. den after tat we went 2 tiong bahru. hoping 2 find mii heels.. but den dun hav. haha. pk's bro & fren 'qi' dao... haha.. funny. lol... dey keep sayin pk lol. den nth say le jiu say mii. stupid lahx. after tat we went 2 jp.. haha.. finally found mii shoe at 'ba pin'. lol. went 2 mc oso . haha. went home at around 10+ bahx. haha.. lol. so tired.

Saturday(1/12)

hmmm.. woke up at around 10+ 2day lol. den meet pk at around 1..haha.. met wanning etc at de platform dere. haha. den we went off 2 bugis again.. haha. lol.. quite sien can. haha. but den bo bian. hav 2 help hui ping 2 gai bian xing xiang lol. haha. but de outcome is quite successful lol. haha. hmmm. reached dere at around 2+ haha. tat hui ping so slow can. den we go walk walk first lol. pk go but e same clothin as mii & change on de spot. haha. here comes hui ping. went 2 e toilet 2gether.. while waitin 4 pk 2 get changed, i help hui ping 2 put on makeup.. haha. den pk oso. haha. lols.. mii & pk help her choose clothes etc lol. she bought alot of clothes 2day lahx. haha. mii & pk bought a pair of shoes each. den she went off 2 meet tat stupid pig at orchard 4 movies lol.. left mii & hui ping .. haha. she treat mii eat thai food lehx. haha. den i bring her 2 outram 2 buy her bags lol. haha. lol. hmmm reach home around 9+ lol. on de way home.. i called pk 2 tok lahx. haha. lol. she still with tat pig lahx. still at around cityhall dere lol. expect mii 2 wait 4 her lahx. lol. but ofcox i wont. haha. lol.

Sunday(1/13)

lol.. haha.. i very de guai 2day... stay at home e whole day .. lols.. tat jac lahx. stay wat wanna go gym 2gether, den lazy nvr go in e end lol. haha. lols. hmmm.. charlene came at around 3.. wahx. tuition started. i was lyk so tired can.. so i struggle not 2 doze off lol. haha. 1 1/2 hour later, she was abt 2 go 2 jac hse lahx. but jac suddenly cannot make it lol.. so she stayed at mii hse. haha. we chatted 4 a long tym lahx. den she so lucky. mii mum come back with lots of thai de yummy food. so she stayed 4 dinner.. haha. lol. cant believe it lahx. she nvr see those food b4 lahx. haha. lol. but ok lahx. haha. hmmm.. she went back at around 8+.. haha. was doin mii hw lol. do until around 11 lol. den went 2 slp..

Monday(1/14)

yawn... so tired.. not enuf slp... lol. haha. hmmm.. 2day arhx. lyk tat lol.. had normal lessons. den when recess tym horhx., mii n jac went 2 eat de machine de bread lahx. but den 2 long liao. so nvr eat. haha. lols. jac is lyk so crazy 2day lahx. was slpin in class, den she keep singin de chinese song lahx. make mii lyk wanna puke. haha. laugh lyk hell .. she go & poke ms lee de butt lahx. haha.. after tat she bring mii go buy mii jeans lol.. heex.. den went 2 eat at de kopitiam.. so 'qiao' lahx. met eck & fren dere. so e 4 of us eat 2gether lol. haha. den wei haw came.. lols. stupid lahx.. tat jac & eck dun wanna go with mii lahx. den nvm lol.. mii & wei haw go je de imm.. go daiso buy de sketch bk & popular 2 buy 2 A3 paper lol. haha.. charlene came 2 meet us later lol.. haha. saw her 31 year old bro.. lol. haha. no comment lol. xp

hmmm.. pei wei haw go repair his fone at de dunno where lahx. haha.. so suay can.. it was closed. lol. haha. so we took cab home lol. haha. but i neednt pay a single cent. lol. haha. hmmm.. talked 2 vivian lol. haha. usin de webcam.. lol. haha. so gong gong lahx she.. haha hmm.. tats all lol. yeahx.. go slp le.. ^^

i died.
2:25 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008

lols... 2day was lyk so borin & tired lol.. haha.. sleep at 12 yesterday den wake up at 6 in de mornin 2day lol.. so tired.. mii eye lyk goin 2 stick 2gether any tym lol.. haha.. i made 'ai xin bian dang' again 2day.. haha. star shape de.. haha.. so cute lahx. i dun feel lyk eatin it lahx. but 2 bad.. haha.. mii stomach was grumblin lol.. haha. hmmm.. 2day got english lesson lol.. wa lao.. i was lyk so... STRESSED.. lol.. all lyk starin at mii lahx. haha.. but heng arhx. as an EX promoter & a 'future singer', i m not afraid.. haha.. lol.. (hope so) heex.. lols.. den i slept at mrs goh de class lol.. so shuang lol. haha. wa lao.. tat miss chin horhx. choose ppl do de notice board choose until mii lol.. stupid.. all becox of tat hua chi lahx. if not 4 jacqueline ng, i would not be 1 of de ppl hu do de tyg lahx. hmmm.. mii & pk went 2 imm dere 2day.. lol. suddenly rainin lyk hell lahx.. so big. den we took cab dere. haha.. lol.. den went 2 eat subway.. haha. but i wan eat donut. sad. haha. we walk around daiso den i bought some stuff on manicure lol. haha. we went back at around 5+ 2day.. haha.. yeahx.. 2moro mii n pk goin alot of places lol.. goin 2 shop.. haha.. den maybe hav 2 go town lol. but ok de lahx. haha..

testimonials...

to jac (hua chi):

haha... lols.. ya.. i miss SY alot arhx.. haha.. lols... ^^

i died.
1:35 PM

Thursday, January 10, 2008

hmmm.. 2day is mii first post here.. haha. lol.. so sien can.. i got sabo at eng class.. lol. keep tellin mii go say de speech lol.. den i didnt go. wahx. shit. 2moro got eng.. arhx.. hmmm.. we had math remedial 2day.. b4 tat.. mii, jac, pk, fen mien, sayang & jacemon went 2 boon lay dere 2 eat.. haha.. i even saw asfar at lakeside.. haha.. i pinch him.. lol. miss him lahx. so long tym nvr see him liao..went home 2 put some tygs. haha. i gave mii dad $50 den he was lyk happy lahx. but didint say so.. haha. i noe he was happy. got money lehx. somemore is i give de. haha. gave pk $50 oso.. owe her de lol. in de end we were late 4 class .. but mr chew nvr scold us. haha. heng arhx. after de remedial, mii & jac go imm.. haha.. so funny lahx. we go daiso buy lunch box. haha. 2moro is my turn 2 make de 'ai xin bian dang'.. haha.. lols. hmmm... den we went 2 buy de xxl chicken.. so big lol.. cannot finish it lehx. we oso got a donut each.. haha.. yummy..... i love donuts. haha. den mii n jac was lyk tykin abt sumtyg crazy lahx.. we agreed 2 wear lyk a guy at grad nite.. haha.. but will change after tat lahx. haha. lol. i saw another long lost fren while waitin 4 bus lahx. haha. i didnt even regconize him lahx. haha. he was lyk wavin at mii .. haha. so funny. lol. met another gal 4rm rulang oso .. i didnt even noe her. but i was supprised tat she noe mii.. lol. den 3 of us was lyk tokin lol. den went 2 jac de hse 2 put her stuff.. after tat she accompany mii 2 de market 2 buy mii shoes.. lol. met en siong & alvin playin bball at de CC dere.. haha.. i bought rice home.. 4 de bian dang. lol.. on de way home, i met jacemon de mum & dad lahx.. haha.. his mother tok 2 mii lol. weird weird de. haha. lol. went home.. vivian was lyk so zhun lahx. i was abt 2 step in de bath room den she call mii..we chat until lyk so late lol. but in between i go took a shower lahx. haha. hmmm.. got 2 noe alot 4rm her abt 'them'.. so funny.. especially HIM.. haha.. i miss HIM so much lol. hmmm.. maybe. lol.. i was lyk so busy 2day lol. ppl keep callin mii.. den de ice-lemon-tee oso call mii go down tiong bahru 2 work 2moro lahx. haha. siao lahx. i got sch lehx. haha. wahx. i spended alot 2day lol. atleast $210 lahx.(includin de allowance tat i give 2 mii dad & mum & mine 2!) hmmm.. miss him... lols. haha.

i died.
3:11 PM