i wonder how long has it been since i blogged..
it has been a long time i guess.
its been very happening in production..
everybody doesn't seem to dislike me..
but they don't seem to really respect me either.
it's like i'm their friend more than an sft..
well...
i'd rather be friends than someone not more than an sft..
everyday just pass unknowingly..
it's like that day is just yesterday...
been the second month since i saw him...
long enough to forget how he looked like.
long enough to forget how his eyes had me..
and long enough to forget how his warmth felt to me..
this 2 months,
i've spent time with my cousins from Thailand,
my beloved sister; Audrey,
my love; Jac,
my darling; Rose,
my women; Dianne,
not forgetting the many peeps who light up my life like wafi, chris & pek..
and of course,
my fellows in production..
i've cut my hair real short..
it signifies a new day,
new hairstyle,
new life,
new beginning,
and a new me..
no more pondering over someone who doesn't love me the way i love him..
even though it hurts just so much..
even though i miss him too much..
and even though he is rooted in my heart.
i'm glad..
that he didn't hurt me the way others were hurt.
and we remained the same.
not awkward anymore i guess.
and there seemed to have someone else coming in too..
which i'm not so sure about.
oh well..
there is an upcoming singing competition, JYP!
i wonder if i should join..
but its been so long since i sang..
which means i haven been singing..
though its my dream..
but..
i don't know..
i died.
10:34 PM
