went to sentosa siloso beach to have picnic with christina and wafi today!
so nice of them to prepare food and all to celebrate my belated birthday.
it felt nice to lie down and look at the stars and the coconut tree.
this is almost like the first time.
first time felt that the sky and stars is beautiful in singapore.
on the way there,
we passed by a ride..
where it looked like a bench and looked like the 'sky ride'
and immediately,
i thought of you..
at that moment when i looked at the ride,
i was drawn to it.
i looked at it while thinking of you,
and i sort of imagine us sitting on it,
how it would be like?
if only i graduated earlier,
i would have went there with you..
and maybe,
we would be smiling happily at each other,
holding hands or maybe i would be in your arms.
and we would be watching the sunset together.
but all of that will only happen in my dreams and my illusions..
a lot of times i thought,
should i msg you and stuff?
should i try to get you back?
but how?
and if i really keep on pestering you,
i'm afraid that i might pissed you off or make you irritated.
and knowing that you are wore out.
how can i make it worse for you?
or maybe,
there is someone else that you met.
that can give you the happiness that i can never give you.
sign~
i really miss you a lot.
i'm really lost..
without you~
i died.
12:32 AM
