haix....
looking at your fb profile again..
you changed your picture to the one i loved.
almost tear when i saw it.
but i have to control my tears..
everyday,
i have been waiting for some news of you..
on fb..
and you sound happy.
i guess you r really happier without me..
met austin yst since he had nth on like me as well...
we went for lunch at clarke quay which reminds me of you.
wanted to walk over to your workplace since you are not working today..
but afraid of crying when i look into the memories...
i went to your workplace twice..
and both times with heavy feelings..
both times i'm afraid that you might not want to see me.
both times shivering as well.
and then we walked aimlessly and talked about his work at pan pac.
and then i thought to myself..
i told you so!!!
hotel life is not what we expected...
in restaurant, we learn more..
even though we don't see as much..
and i'm also surprised that he knew my two close friends..
even hated one of them..
i was like laughing.
the one he hate is very close to me loh!!
she's actually very kind in nature..
he will have to find out more himself.
and then we went to one of the places that i loved to chill out alone at.
The chocolate cafe,
i wanted to bring you to..
but i no longer have the chance..
for so many times i regretted..
i regretted working so hard and not spending more time with you.
now that i'm more free,
i wanted to bring you to so many places..
but.....
i no longer can.
sign...
and then we went to harris nxt door to have a drink..
he seriously cannot drink..
just a few sips of alcohol and he is red..
hahahaha!
oh well..
cant blame that he is still underage to drink.
and we went to marina barrage..
that place is so beautiful at night..
and suddenly i thought about you too..
its like every min and every sec..
everywhere i go..
i hoped that i can go with you.
but..
i guess i can only dream about that.
haix.
talked a lot to austin..
from work to life,
to love and to friends..
after knowing so much..
i think my brother is mature already..
he should really try talking to girls more..
he cant be waiting for miracle to happen..
oh well..
he's stubborn.
there's lots on my mind after talking to austin for the whole day yst..
and i thought..
at least i had memories with you..
yes..
there are regrets.
and i still want you.
i still can't let go.
but i can't be selfish..
if there is a next life,
i would want our love to last.
i would trade my life now for that if necessary.
and i will wait for you in our next life.
and that time..
i won't hesitate or shy to tell you that..
I Love You Baby..
and i always do..
since the previous life when i met you.
guess you will never know about this ba..
i died.
12:44 PM
