after thinking & crying for the whole night...

i've decided to just bring the watch to you and give it to you..

wanted to give you on the day itself.

but then..

the day won't be coming anymore..

i plucked up the courage to write whatever that is in my heart to you.

when i reached that place,
i was like....
shivering.
i dun know y either..
i'm nervous..
too nervous i guess.
went to a corner and wait..
and den he walked past..
i snapped up that sec and waited for him to come back out.
and he did shortly after..
at that moment,
i really dunno how to react..
i just passed it to him and den said bye.
he took it,
and it was almost like he smiled.
but i'm not sure.
didn't really dare to look up at him.
when he went in..
i almost run up to hug him..
but.....
ended up walking back.
my hands felt so cold...
and then i went straight to work..
i really miss mummy alot....
i called her in the morning when i cool down a little and stopped crying..
but when the moment i hear her voice,
i started crying again..
i told her what happened..
and she comfort me..
even call me after my work to see if i was ok..
i really miss her a lot..
when will she come back from thailand?
and i really miss you..
a lot..
everything i do,
everywhere i go,
everything i see,
reminds me of you.
;-(