hmmm...
actually i am just confused all over again.
i don't really know what is on my mind exactly.
this 2 days i've been going down to scape..
and yeah.
the funny thing about yesterday is that i wore my wig.
no one actually realize it.
and then there is these 3 men sitting in white dog cafe keep staring at me.
they actually offered me and vivian a glass of wine each.
haa!
so funny..
the way evangeline describe at how their eyes follow where i go..
this was the first time someone offered me a drink in a cafe.
though normally it would be in a pub.
but yeah.
that felt good.
haha.
they say i looked better in short hair.
well.
i trimmed my hair today.
so that i won't have split ends!!!
and went to scape again cox mom wants to get something.
and i'm really broke!!!
my card got no balance left..
and i'm like.
omg!
thank god i still have a spare card.
haha.
and the worse part is..
we went for mac and i spent another 20..
this time..
i'm really left without a penny...
wow..
i sound so pathetic.
hopefully they bank in my allowance already...
if not...
i'm gonna make a hell lot of noise..
its the 7th of September already..
in exactly a week's time...
his birthday...
and me...
i was actually thinking of making him a cake..
yeah.
i am still stuck.
but i'm not like the other time.
this time is because of his birthday...
and it was a gift..
rather than making it due to love..
i can't deny that i still think of him at times..
and i'm thinking about sheng yi as well.
if i were to go to taiwan with vivian the other time..
my profession now would have been a fashion designer or a make up artist..
and i would have already be together with sheng yi..
and none of all these that happened would have happen..
well.
what's done is done..
there is nothing that can be changed..
haix.
thinking back.
i still love sheng yi..
but i loved joe now..
contradicting.
i don't even know what i'm thinking either..
i died.
11:54 PM
