this few weeks has almost been my happiest days..
although its so happening..
and i got a lot of shit.
but he wasn't that cold towards me anymore.
i thought we were getting along better.
at least your replies are so much better.
sometimes u even 'report' to me somehow when i just told u i missed u.
its like u know what i'll ask next..
and u'll tel me about your injury.
knowing that you didn't feel well after u are back from oversea till now,
i woke up in the morning on my off day.
and use plenty of effort to cook porridge,
and bring it over to your workplace.
i knew all those is just my one-sided love for you.
knowing that gratitude is all u have for me.
and simply a phrase of thanks for your porridge..
i'm contented somehow.
just wanna be by your side.
even as a 'calafare' ; 'spare tire' or 'guardian angel'
that was b4 u somehow made it clear.
in your status..
'forget me, forget it, forget everything'
i knew its for me.
i knew this time u really made it clear for me.
i felt like my heart got stabbed so deeply,
blood oozing out,
and then its gone..
tears that should be rolling down my face,
gone the other way round..
going down to my stomach.
like i cant cry anymore.
how sad i am...
i still have to put on a strong front.
i know i'll still love u..
but i'll not bother u anymore.
but still..
i'll watch out for u though.
i'll go for a make over.
get a new look and style.
become a woman that is sexy, seductive & secretive.
maybe,
i'll have someone else by then..
my heart really aches...
;(
i died.
1:06 AM
