haix.
been able to post all these..
cox i don't have the courage to do so.
i'm afraid..
that one day,
my weakness will be seen through.
everyday...
i'm like putting a strong front..
even joke around with my sisters and laugh out loud with them.
my heart aches.
but who can see it?
can he see it?
can he feel it?
i knew very well that he don't give a damn about how i felt.
saw his fb.
with that girl.
well..
she gorgeous..
have a nice body,
nice skin,
she fits him much much much more than i do.
somehow,
i got the feeling that they were together now.
as in being together,
not bgr kind of together.
and if i'm not wrong,
she's at his place too.
waiting for him to finish bathing,
then go out and have supper together.
browsing through her blog.
the first pic was the both of them wearing the same ear mufflers in his car.
they look like a couple though.
i don't deny that i felt really damn hurt.
i still forced myself to smile and laugh.
i became so emo..
even went to kbox during my break time alone,
sang and drank alone in a spacious room.
haven had any meals today.
my breakfast is simply a little of the durian cake from thailand & a glass of ice coffee;
my lunch is a small bottle of Heineken;
had 2 - 3 pieces of wedges for snack;
and had a bottle of breezer peach for dinner..
guess this few days i won't have my appetite bah.
he posted the song above in his fb,
and yeah.
i loved this song..
it reminds me of myself.
how close it is to my heart.
like she sang my heart out.
sorrow..
this song..
and even my favorite flower.
was named after sorrow.
this is just the word for me.
i died. 1:06 AM
