distance brings people closer together
it can also prove how strong a relationship or friendship between people are
we still loved and rely on each other.
maybe you think i don't care or bother about you.
why i'll meet jac, or chris, or pek pek..
its becox they come my work place to find me.
or you can also say that they are chasing after me.
maybe we are not meant to be.
neither do i wanna hurt you.
i may not msg you or cal you.
doesn't mean that i don't care.
something you don't know.
you are always on my mind.
you are that someone whom i worried the most.
and everytime i got slow and got scolded & stressed,
is becox half of my mind is thinking about how you are.
work has brought a lot of stress,
i'm like a soccer ball too..
being kicked around to wherever that needs people,
that general manager who likes to step in to the kitchen and make me headache.
and then there is that dirty old man who keeps bothering me.
and joe might be going for operation.
and my parent's problems,
i'm like a the filling of a sandwich..
then there's my sisters who gives my endless problems and headaches every day.
all this stress made me lose weight.
maybe losing weight is a good thing.
but i lost weight becox i'm stressed and all.
and my migrain reacting and all.
what ever situation i'm in,
only people that work in the same kitchen knows.
i wished you would understand too.
when you are in this kind of situation you will know too.
didn't tell you about my troubles partly is becox i didn't wanna trouble you.
is that i have to learn to stand on my own feet.
i have only me to rely on.
i wanted to let you stand on your own.
so that you will be strong.
but every time i see you unhappy and all,
maybe you think that i'm lies,
i know u wished that i hadn't appear in your life.
but i'll still remember you for life.
i guess leo and taurus just don't get along that well.
saw that you are getting along well with your gf and jw.
it'll make life better for you.
saw these on jac's tumblr..
"You don’t love someone because they’re perfect. You love them inspite of the fact that they’re not"
the 11 painful things that she mentioned:
1. binging back the feeling that you've learned to forget.
2. reminiscing the good times.
3. trying to hide how you really felt.
4. loving someone who loves another.
5. having commitment with someone you know that won't last.
6. shielding your heart to love somebody.
7. loving a person too much.
8. right love at the wrong time.
9. taking the risk to fall in love again.
10. accepting that i was never meant to be.
it speaks part of my heart.
loving him and my friends is not becox they are perfect.
its becox of the flaws they have that i've accepted.
and as for the 11 things.
those were the things that i do hate.
and the pain in the heart.
maybe its like what jac says:
absences makes the heart grows fonder.
your absences made me missed you more.
she told me that when you saw us,
what she think, about how u felt at that moment,
he knows that i'm there because of him,
living for the sake of living.
i wished i hadn't have any emotions or feelings or even feel tired.
then maybe i won't be in this state.
we still have to carry on climbing up the slopes no matter how hard it is.
if not we'll fall and die.
we're still breathing the same air,
seeing the same sunrise and sun set.
and living in the same world.
i died.
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