2 months a week and 5 days.
i cant deny that time really flies.
its like its just in a flash..
a month before..
i'm just 17..
waiting to turn into a woman..
and then suddenly..
i'm 18..
how fast can that be?!
and sometimes i really can't believe that i'm that so faithful..
haix.
till now..
i still got the blue for u..
every now and then..
laopa will tel me to find a guy and get married..
or he will tel shaun to find me a guy..
-.-
i was like..
wth...
thats just because he doesn't want me to bother him..
but i'll still stick to him like a super glue..
haa!
i feel like i've known him for a very long time.
maybe its because i somehow see joe in him..
i really miss him a lot..
kept thinking about him today.
i don't know why.
part of me is telling me not to think about him anymore..
but part of me is still missing him and thinking about him.
wondering if he is feeling better.
and if he replied my facebook comment.
somehow.
i half guessed that he would just ignore it.
or rather 99% confirmed that he won't reply.
but still. that 1% is hoping that he would at least reply a 'hmm, haa.'
oh well.
he did reply.
and i'm delighted.
everyone keep telling me..
that me and him is no chance.
and a wishful thinking.
deep in my heart.
i know that.
but.
i still love him.
tried a lot of ways.
even thought of just finding any guy who is not bad and treats me well.
but i just can't bring myself to do that.
to betray & cheat myself.
to hurt the guy.
been listening to a song by westlife;
If I Let You Go
just almost like what i had in mind..
if i let him go..
i will never know what my life could be holding him close to me.
haix.
i feel like crying just now..
from morning.
haven had any appetite.
or energy.
just...
well.
i'm not torturing myself.
its just me.
i really miss him a lot.
tired.
i died.
12:37 AM
