2 months, 2 weeks & 4 days.
haven got a wink until now.
like wtf.
went to the school to do my referal.
and haleluya~~
i screw up everything.
i was like. wtf!
and there goes another 300.
i seriously wish to quit shatec.
but come to think of it.
i've paid so much money..
i have to at least get the cert..
i can't really believe that i failed too.
guess i'm just too tired.
and also,
its been a long while since i even make a consomme.
then after the test,
i went straight to work with a heavy heart and head.
the funny part is that i went to work,
time in & then time out again to go for break with daddy.
haa!
went over to harry's...
and had a game with daddy.
somehow..
my pool improved alot.
and even at night after work...
can't believe that i can beat daddy..
not really beat.
i don't know how to say.
but i somehow won..
the only happy thing that has happened today is maybe that my skills have improved.
the worst part is that daddy knows about my failure..
and then i got shoot for the whole day.
ok!
stop it...
its over!!!
don't make me think about it anymore.
it bothers me.
alot.
haix.
i got the punishment.
god let me have a great day for once.
and then make it hell after the desert.
i thought its only the beginning of a new good start..
but turned out that its the opposite.
its the beginning of hell.
and today..
a new guy from shatec joined us..
and i have got to really buck up.
because he is fast.
if he surpasses me in a short period of time..
means i'm gone case.
so much stress.
so tired.
so much things on my shoulder..
i wonder if i could still juggle it without falling.
but for now..
i will try.
at least for so long,
i got to hear your voice..
and knowing that you did not avoid me.
and i miss you more each day.
i died.
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