a month and a week.
days passed just like that.
everyday was almost the same.
work, harris bar, sleep.
but tomorrow will be different.
haha.
meeting up with chris, wafi.
maybe dropping by to see grandma,
& swimming with jac.
what a day!
haha. looking forward.
but..
will i be shag?!
hope not.
and on Wednesday...
weijie will be coming to find me!!
haha.
been so long since we meet up.
almost forgot how he looked like.
opps.
had a chat with qing just now.
and she told me a story.
that god once hold her hands and tel her,
don't have to find love,
and love will come to you.
if you don't think about love,
your love will soon come to you.
somehow,
i agreed.
but its so hard to even not think about him for a sec,
or maybe a day.
let alone forgetting him.
maybe i would.
but not so soon.
people always come to know how to cherish,
until they really lose it.
maybe,
someday,
when I'm gone,
then he will realize.
and by then,
will my love for him come back?
or its time for him to have a taste of his own medicine.
but I'd rather be the one suffering.
than seeing him in pain like i do.
i know how much it hurts.
to be in a situation like this.
knowing that u can't be the one to make him smile,
knowing that you can't have that person,
but at the same time,
deceiving yourself that maybe he just needs some time,
because he didn't tel you how he really feels,
that he didn't reject or accept.
deceiving yourself that now is not the time yet,
its more crucial for us to concentrate on studies and career.
but all that and all that.
in the end.
I already knew the answer.
that he's just not that into me.
that even time can't really develop.
but i still can't forget him.
simply love him.
more than i thought i have.
or maybe i just treasure him too much,
because i don't want to leave any regrets.
losing your loved ones is painful.
maybe because I've lost too much,
therefore i treasure each and every one individually.
i died.
2:15 AM
