it's the 10th day since i've seen u,
these 10 days are had for me.
idk how long do i have to be like this.
i plucked up the courage to talk to u,
but u didn't reply me.
is it that u were busy?
or is it that u just didn't want to talk to me.
i wanted to stop all this nonsense.
but how?
i wish to stop thinking about u.
they say that time heals all wounds,
yes.
maybe it does..
but it doesn't heal every thing,
the side effect is that it left scars,
scars that can never be erased.
should i be happy that i finally had the strength to let u go?
or maybe my mind is preoccupied by dramas and all?
i really don't know.
its like my brain is telling me that i don't love him anymore,
but my heart tells me that i loved him.
he is what i never knew i always wanted.
the worst mistake is to hold on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to.
i don't understand,
why do i love u so deeply?
why am i affected by u?
u know..
every time i see u smile and know that it was not for me,
thats when my heart aches like its been stabbed a feel times,
& thats when i miss u the most.
i died.
11:09 PM
