another day has almost come to an end,
night has fall upon us again.
again,
I'm just waiting for the right time to come,
crashing me with loneliness.
went swimming with jac today.
it has been a very long time since i went to swim.
and today its really..
relaxing.
how strange..
i felt that I'm somehow connected to water.
whenever i swim and go under the water,
its like it was my..
home.
and i loved going to my favorite spot,
looking at the sea,
every time i had the urge to just jump down and into the underwater world.
its the 9th day since i saw u.
the vision of u walking away is still so vivid in my mind.
even what u were wearing.
its been about 3 days,
and u were back in town again.
when i saw your name,
or should i say saw u online,
i was..
happy..
knowing that u were close.
or rather.
i wanted to talk to u,
but i was afraid,
afraid of what i don't know.
maybe i was afraid to annoy u,
to spoil your mood from the trip.
the clock just keeps on ticking,
what am i really waiting for?
i guess its the darkness, cold, miserable, &
loneliness.
i saw 11:11,
does it shows that u are missing me?!
i hope.
but i guess not.
i guess i've really changed a lot,
did i?
my close friends..
they said i became more like a loner,
someone so emo.
not like i used to be.
and i thought so too.
for some reasons,
i loved to be alone but not lonely.
unfortunately,
i got both.
here.
i wanted to say a sorry to those whom i have neglected,
and someone especially rose,
sorry that our friendship has turned out this way,
maybe this is the best way for us.
but i really treasure our past memories.
thank u for everything.
i died.
11:27 PM
