29th day..
today was rather great.
at first before i was at work..
or i should say before work start.
i was walking around alone..
and went for a stick or 2 by the 'shore'
sitting there emo and waiting for the time to pass.
was like so tired.
didnt feel like working.
but i dragged myself to work..
haha.
at first there wasnt much.
but then after a while..
things start to turn..
was in a little mess.
but great fun..
the adrenaline rush.
haa!
went for lunch alone.
and well..
it was somehow great to be a loner sometimes.
and then i talked to puite on the phone..
trouble with guys again.
but what to do?!
guys will be guys, no doubt.
and her situation made me think of mine somehow.
when i was in that position.
i know it sucks.
but then..
somehow again..
different in a sense.
=/
hard to explain, complicated & contradicting.
but i really miss those times..
at least i still can peep through the little window and look at u..
or see you walking away slowly with your back facing me.
still remember the last time i saw you.
and how much i really regretted.
been almost a month.
means i've loved u for about 9 months to be exact.
and in 2 days time..
it'll be start of the 10th month.
i didnt know that the feeling was so deep.
and i caught myself looking at kelvin's hands..
his hand's colour tone and all look almost like yours.
and i cant help from looking and thinking about you.
your touch and all.
really miss those times.
before the truth about me loving you is out.
at least i still can talk, joke and all to you.
and i remember when you hugged me.
warmth and butterflies fluttering in my stomach.
haix.
oh well..
tomorrow will be a better day..
i died.
1:02 AM
