idk wat has got into me.
this few days, my mood is just not right.
things has changed drastically,
or maybe its just my mind that is doing all those.
my apologies to sis.
i couldn't face u this few days.
but i promise i will find u on thursday.
im sorry because if i were to go find u, im afraid i will break down.
because in front of u, i don't know how to retaliate my own feelings.
im afraid i might do something again.
something stupid, like msging him again.
if its possible between me and him, he would have reacted long ago alrd.
what im doing now,
will only make him feel irritated and annoyed.
no matter how much i wanted to,
i cannot.
because i'd rather leave the impression that i wasn't an annoying gal,
than being an irritating gal.
i guess i have to let go,
no matter how much i don't feel like,
i just have to force myself a bit.
because i love him,
that's why i let him go.
but he took my heart away,
he didn't return it to me,
im just an empty shell on the outside.
oh well,
this suits my blog as well.
'empty-hearted'
i'm sorry sis.
i really hope u understand how i feel.
i'll be going out with pk and my 1 other guy friend for this 2 days.
and try to be happy with them.
to find myself.
as in my old self.
and i will go back to u.
please don't be angry with me.
i just need time.
i died.
9:39 PM
