haix.
i think i've really gone abit crazy..
these 2 days i have been actin like a crazy woman.
idk y oso.
maybe its becox of all de stress that made me lose control.
but some say im just tryin to be happy.
i guess so ba.
2day.. went sch and walked passed his class.
he was slpin soundly like a baby.
maybe its de only time when he look so innocent and more dashin than b4..
becox its de only time where all his worries r temporally gone..
and worries that ceased his forehead eased away.
i stopped but all to look again at u..
my feet r nailed to de ground.
not wantin to move away from that angelic scene.
i scrutinized his face for a little while.
and smiled to myself.
i heard stories abt u.
and i wasnt afraid.
i still..
loved u.
but i wish to help.
but idk how.
if only u would let me in.
but i noe.
u wont let me in.
maybe u r afraid.
maybe u dun hav any feelin for me.
maybe u dun wanna hurt me.
dere is just so much maybe.
and i realized 2day.
that i might hav feelin for some1else.
some1 whom is not accepted by de society.
a gal...
idk y.
but its just a crush.
maybe its becox guys make me too tired.
too tired to run towards them.
becox they ran too fast.
too hard to catch up with.
haix.
everytime im on de edge on givin up..
u will appear and pull me back.
maybe u didnt do it on purpose.
but de little things u do...
makes me wonder.
and ur smile..
gives me de wings to fly..
did i care too much for u?
did i worry too much for u?
maybe..
but i nv really show it out.
maybe i did.
but u didnt noe.
all i can do..
is to ask frens that r around u to help.
to look out for u.
but thats all i can do.
tats how i show my love.
w/o lettin u noe.
maybe its de best way.
i died.
11:11 PM
