Thursday, February 4, 2010
rite.. how should i start this?! hmmm.. well today was very dry as well.. nth much apart from seeing him.. sometimes i wonder.. y m i born this way? with illnesses with me. and its not only that.. havin so much probs.. nth is smooth in my life.. be it frenship, studies, career or even relationship.. this few days have been very hard for me.. been havin severe headache and lost my appetite.. each day.. i eat only abt 1 meal.. and i dun eat much.. and i keep havin nausea, blurred visions as if im goin to faint anytime. do i look emo?! alot of ppl say tat.. but i dun think so ba.. its just me. dun really wanna talk much.. and de noise around me r just.. unbearable.. so many ppl tokin at de same time.. i feel very much to slap every1 of them and tel them to shut de fuck up.. but well. ofcox i didnt do tat.. haha.. if not i'll be so busted. lol. exam is nxt week alrd. i wanna drop wda.. i dun think i can handle tat amount of stress though. when i think of it, de pain in my head will start again. haix.. i've been readin my eclipse again for de second time.. although its de second time.. it still facinates me. i wonder y. haha. sometimes.. i really wish tat i could become bella. at least she has edward and jacob hu loves her so deeply.. and family.. things tat i worry abt, she will nv hav to worry. whereas things tat she worry abt.. i dun hav to.. but.. i wish to take her place.. in a world tat has vampires and werewolves.. fantasy.. 2day he walked pass me 2 times. and i was really like lookin at him.. i noe tat he noes tat im lookin.. just tat he doesnt wanna look back at me de second time. come to think of it, he is dashin 2day.. he's wearin a brown button shirt.. i wonder if he is goin out today. hmmm. dunno.. i was like takin a nap just now.. and den called me.. (i didnt pick up. xp) opps. he asked me to cal him.. and i got a shockin news.. geraldine posted rose & joe's photo.. and she actually say tat 'peiying must be heartbrokened'.. i was like.. omg! y my name?! to geraldine.. she might think tat im sad becox of rose.. but to those hu noes.. they will think tat its becox of joe. i was like so ps la. but i admit tat i laughed when i saw tat pic.. both of them r just so cute. haha. esp rose. she look like some small kid in de arms of her daddy.. hahahaha. opps. xp but well.. im not jealous though. haix. im still pondering over whether i should make him de 'neck pillow' or not. should i? im confused.. hmm..
i died.
9:38 PM
