the names JAMIE KATRINA! u can call me either 1. 我今年 19 岁.
我喜欢看书，煮东西，吃东西，唱歌，跳舞，购物，pool, 还有。。。。 说不完！！
just another emo girl, doesn't like to express by speaking, but instead she sings her heart out.. dont take me for granted, i don't know what i will do..
TO GETS:
- DSLR Cam! - Samsung Galaxy S! - shopping trip to thailand & not forgetting their temples to visit.. - photoshoot!!!
haven been on9 lately.. didnt hav de time.. alot of things happened lately.. i didnt noe y.. but i hate de feelin.. last sunday, me, wafi and rose went to study at the cathay; starbucks. den me and rose accompany wafi for dinner.. but i didnt eat as i was plannin to meet god daddy for dinner.. but unfortunately, he couldnt make it.. so i was like disappointed.. :/ been so long since i met him.. but i will meet him soon! haha. den idk y.. i actually had d idea of callin him and meetin him for dinner.. and i just called w/o thinkin. stupid me.. but he didnt pick up.. i was like.. haix.. but den a few mins later, he called me back.. and i was like.. omg.. wat should i do now.. and i ans it.. and was speechless... den he said.. mm... and i was like.. huh?! haha. wat a stupid reply.. and he said i called him. so i was like.. ya!! haha. no la. wanted to ask u out for dinner.. but he just ate.. so i was like.. huh. tats sad. :/ abit sacarstic though. den he ask me hu i was with.. and i said rose. he was like laughin.. but didnt really laugh out.. i can imagine how his face will be like at tat moment.. and i smiled.. =] den i went to meet audrey.. i think im relyin on her more and more.. opps. sorry audrey.. i feel like i cant do w/o her alrd. and i feel de same for him too.. de day b4 yesterday i almost gone crazy.. i suddenly felt like seein him so badly when im in resort world.. i left my heart with him.. for de whole journey i wasnt interested in it at all.. nth dere is able to catch my attention.. de scenery, de restaurants and everything was great.. but to no avail, i wasnt interested.. my mind was loaded with him.. every single space was him.. or maybe some is shane and audrey. xp my heart kept racin non stop.. i wanted very much to see him.. like rite away.. den back in sch, we were preparin for de upcomin test.. but well.. i couldnt really concentrate fully. and i was really really really very stressed up.. idk y too. maybe tats y i made a hell of stupid careless mistake in my K.O test... and ended up in worryin for de test and went drinkin with nic they all.. idk y.. i cried really badly after i drank.. maybe de beer make me open up.. and cry out all those tat i have built within me.. esp when audrey call me.. i totally lost it.. cant hold it longer.. and when i reach home, after i bathe.. i vomited in my room.. de good thing was, i vomit on de floor and not de bed.. haa. and i cleared up quickly w/o my mom noein wat i vomit out.. phew.. but she noe abt me vomitin.. den 2day... i was forced to go to de doc.. but well.. i admit tat i was really sick.. and im glad to visit de doc.. haha. i got something too.. =] haa. and i went for dinner with my mom and sis at de market.. come to think of it.. its like so long since we got tgt and had dinner tgt.. but a pity tat my dad couldnt make it. :/ and a bad news is tat.. my grandpa is gettin weaker and weaker.. im really worried abt him.. i guess in abt a week or so, my mom will fly back to take care of him.. this might be de last chance.. i really hope tat i can go too.. but i cant.. due to my studies.. wat if he really couldnt make it?! i'll be damn guilty.. how m i goin to face my own conscience?! and i tot back to my grandma's funeral.. painful memories.. haix. i really hope tat he can pull through. and after i save enuf money, i'll fly back to visit him.. i noe that he misses me and my sisters the most.. haix. until now.. i still cant get him out of my mind.. wat a heart thief... stole my heart away and not returnin it back to me. how can u.. how can u make me love u so deeply and dun do anything abt it.. tel me.. should i confess to u?! should i tel u that i love u?! i really dunno.. yesterday i had a dream.. i dreamt abt u again... the dream was fun.. i dreamt tat u were goin overseas.. and u actually had a cute and interesting little 'mole' [an animal] and u needed some1 to take care of it.. so denley gave it to me.. leavin it in my care.. it was really diff from other moles.. a rare species.. idk how to say.. but its really cute and interestin.. i had lost of fun takin care of it.. haha. de only place where i can be happy.. is in my dreams. a place full of fantasy and surprises.. but i noe.. dreams will only be dreams.. :/ and i miss him more.. how i wish i could hug u tight to slp now. or even just to look at u when u r slpin.. i just miss u more. :/
