haix..
its been very long since i really saw him..
went to sch today but i missed him..
we were always just a wall away from each other..
but somehow..
its like we were not meant to meet..
maybe god is tryin to tel me tat he is not de 1..
but i seriously dun care..
i dun care if we will really last forever..
wat matters most is now..
not tat i say tat de future is not important..
我不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有
天下无不散之筵席，总有一天我们都会分开
we will part no matter wat..
but my heart will still be with u..
all i ask for is a chance.
a chance to embrace u in my arms,
a chance to tel u how much i love u.
a chance to kiss u goodnight,
a chance to wake up and de first person i see when i open my eyes is u..
but.. u seemed so near yet so far..
whenever i reach out to u..
its like u were just an arm's length away from me..
but its like i cant seemed to even touch u..
i longed to be with u all de time..
not wantin to even be a step away from u.
but i can only see u from far..
or just watch ur back..
yes..
its all i asked for now..
but maybe im greedy.. i wanted u..
i wanted to be with u..
i wanted to belong to u.
i've been so crazy these days..
not tat im sad or wat..
im just tryin to be me..
to be de peiying last time..
de cheerful and happy go lucky gal..
de gal hu nv fails to bring joy to her frens..
but its like..
...
i've been uncovered..
frens thinks tat im just trying to make myself happy.
m i?!
i really hav no idea..
i pluck up de courage to msg u..
and i waited..
and waited..
hours after hours.
every new msg i received make me jump with joy..
but when i see tat it wasn't u,
disappointment washed through me again..
till now..
i haven got any of ur msg.
y dun u just hurt me more?
like tel me in de face tat u hav no feelings for me.
instead of tellin me tat maybe its not de time to talk abt r/s
& tat frenship is a better solution.
do u noe wat it means?
it means tat maybe in de future i might stand a chance..
but..
do i?
i noe i should just forget abt u and move on..
but its easier said than done..
i wish some1 could just pull me out of this dark and nv ending pit
help me see the light..
& i wished it was u..
but i noe..
its not possible..
maybe not for now.
haix.
=/
i died.
12:46 AM
