2day was just like any other day. idk wat luck has got into me.. been really.. stuck up.. ppl call it unlucky.. early in de mornin i realised i had my period. but its alright at first. den i go into preparin my bento for sch. (haa. somehing tat de threesome has been doin just becox we r lazy to go out of sch.) after im done.. it was alrd so late and i haven done anything yet.. so i was like rushin.... den when i reached bukit batok, chris told me tat class starts at 10.. but i was dere like 1 hr earlier. [stupid me.] it was not so bad at first.. becox i rmb-ed amos and leo.. and we meet up for breakfast at wm.. we had those typical breakfast like coffee, bread and half boiled egg. omg. i swear im nv goin to eat dere again.. de bread was cold and its like alot of air in it, de egg was tasteless eventhough i added alot of dark & light soy sauce.. i only ate half of it.. de breakfast session last for only abt 10mins or more.. but it seem so weird sittin tgt with them and it seems forever.. idk y. maybe becox we aren't tat close anymore and they changed alot.... especially leo.. i have to say im really disappointed with them.. but i cant do or say anything though.. its de path they chose. den we i wanted to go to de toilet, since they dun wanna use de toilet, so i just tel them to leave lol.. i feel uncomfortable with them around either. i started to hav de cramps and it was really awful.. i was like.. no strength and my body was like achin everywhere. wtf! but still.. i pull myself through it. dun wanna go home.. haha. den i walked passed de photo shop.. and den i tot of jasila. so i printed out some photos and den went to get some lollis.. idk y.. im like startin to like de feelin of alone.. de only thing tat i have is my beloved mp3.. de feelin of freedom, no disturbance, no troubles.. nth at all.. just music and me.. im startin to feel nth.. for some reasons.. i felt tat im sick in de mind somehow.. nowadays, if i got any cut or blister... ppl will hate it so much and wish to get rid of de pain.. but im like.. diff. de more pain de more '刺激' i get.. its like a pleasure to me. well wateva! went to class.. and now.. my cramps was really gettin unbearable.. i was like.. shiverin and i cant open de cap of de water bottle or even hold it properly.. fortunately, rose got me de pink panadol.. i was really reluctant to take it at first.. but i cannot take it anymore and asked her to help me get 1.. thks darlin.. love u so much. communication class ended early, so me and chris went to keep our stuff in de locker and went to de library to use de com.. but guess hu was in de library.. all of them.. accept for den and him.. but a while later, they came in.. and i was like.. omg! den saw me.. and was abt to laugh out loud.. but he kept it down and give me tat sly look. den he was like signalin to me, his eyes rolled up to his direction.. i was like... wth.. do u hav to be so obvious?! grr. but i tried to get my eyes away from him and i started to look up on informations abt project.. just so tat i wont peep at him.. but den sms me and de good news was.. he ate 2 meals 2day.. and asked if i was happy.. i cant help it but to smile to myself and i replied; 2 meals not enuf.. must be 3 meals.. hahaha. den was like crazy.. replied; i might as well pat him to slp oso.. hahahaha. lols. hilarious.. tat wasn't a job for him.. it was some1else's job. lols. time passed really fast.. just a flash and they were gone.. at tat moment.. i really regretted not gettin a glimspe at him.. i should have just listen to my heart and not my brain.. but well.. its over anw.. just now.. i came across their wall-to-wall post.. and all their sweet stuff was rite in my eye.. every word send a spike to my heart.. it hurts just for a moment.. and im glad. i guess im really gettin used to it.. i came across a sentence tat really caught me.. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love... maybe its becox of this reason tat i've become like this.. maybe i've really become a person tat was close to emotionless.. but 1 thing for sure.. i will do wateva things tat u cannot imagine me doin.. if u r readin this.. u better just read and keep it to urself. u dont hav to test me or spread it to other ppl abt this news or gossip behind me.. if u wanna say, say it rite in my face.. i might not appear nasty.. but u hav nv seen me nasty b4.. u wouldnt wan to see my ugly side.. (bitch, im not sayin abt u although it seems to be u. so dun bother. becox i dun wanna add anymore conflict between us.. de last post was for u. not this. so scroll down.)