Tuesday, January 12, 2010
2day is de second day of sch.. was lookin forward to meet wafi.. but well.. he is too tired and over slept.. made me so worried.. grr.. well.. i'll get to see him 2moro though.. miss u so much dude! saw u yesterday and u looked haggard... do u noe how much it hurts to see u like tat? and.. after rose tel me tat u slimmed down alot... it felt even worse.. 2day... de only time when i see u is when u r in de library.. and when u walked passed me.. i felt tat im invisible.. to u at least.. u noe... i wished tat i could be invisble.. so that i could follow u around and see if i can help u.. or maybe at night when u r asleep, i'll be dere to help to cover de blanket. even if it means just to say rite beside u and look at u.. i'll be contented i guess. after de sch has reopened.. it felt so much diff.. first its u.. becox u noe tat i had a thing for u.. and nxt is lovell... den followed by jian long.. hmmm.. hu's nxt? i really dun wan things to turn out this way.. if time is able to reverse.. i would not tel any1 tat i had a thing for u.. i will nv show it out.. and as for de 2.. i will try my best.. to make them my buddies.. y cant gals and guys be just frens or best frens?y does it always hav to turn out this way. i've lost alot of others.. i really dun wish to lose u guys. but wat else can i do? time... doesnt reverse.. wat is done.. cannot be undone..
something came to my mind just now.. when we were released and free to go.. den... unfortunately.. it was rainin heavily outside.. so... i decided to stay awhile and wait for mark to come fetch chris.. aww.. so sweet rite.. i noe.. and den he reached.. i wonder y im sayin abt this.. but well. maybe it leaves a great impression on me. i realised tat they were wearin de same shoes.. and they were sharin de same umbrella.. mark was also shelterin her away from de rain.. seein tat.. i felt so happy for chris.. and at de same time.. idk y.. i felt.. abit lonely.. for a moment.. i was hurt.. maybe im just jealous becox i haven had de taste of havin a bf b4.. and all those little things tat they did tgt and de way they look at each other, their expressions and feel... it felt... blissful.. maybe i loved u.. becox i feel tat in u.. but i noe.. u were just bein u.. de charmin and passionate u.. rite.. y m i talkin abt u again?! i was supposed to 4get abt u.. lols. 问世间情为何物，直叫人生死相许。。什么都看不见了。。
i died.
7:48 PM
