Monday, November 16, 2009
i should hav known.. all tat was just illusions and my own thinkin... my wishful thinkin tat we might stand a chance.. but its actually de other way round. i shouldnt hav made u de substitute right from de start. i shouldnt hav really fall in love with u and get so deep down de tunnel.. a blow like tat hurts... but i should hav known tat history will repeat itself. it wouldnt just stop here... i shouldnt hav got so close to u and made u my god bro.. a lesson tat time should be enuf.. y m i so stupid to make this kind of mistake again. and now.. we cant even be frens.. i dont even hav de right to say no... or even say goodbye for de last time. but somehow. i thanked u.. for being dere when i needed some1, gave me some happiness tat i used 2 hav... and thanked u for reminding me again of tat incident.... and de pain.... this fucked up life... it isnt enuf isnt it... all these in a day isnt enuf isnt it. my air ticket is booked.. and was told tat comprehensive was on de 14th.. fuck.. and i was to go back to see my grandpa. fine... wats more to come? i'll take it.. better come all at once... death.. im awaitin for u...
i died.
10:16 PM
